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Repetition can be very annoying. Trust me, if anyone knows this, it’s me. Out of my thousands of answers that I have provided on Quora, the number of them are repeats is pretty staggering. For some reason the search tool eluded so many, and the same questions would be asked again and again, but varied just enough that they couldn’t be merged with past questions.
I can imagine that if you followed me here, you are very familiar with the basics of psychopathy, and the basis of what I write on the matter. I can respect if a cross post, or a foundational post might be an irritation, as it is information that you already know.
However, a lot of people that are going to find this newsletter don’t have that information, and if they are curious about psychopathy, those basic questions are going to be on their minds. I, at the very least, have to establish a database of information that will exist in an archive here on Eye of the Storm, in order for them to get those questions answered.
It may seem like I could just direct them to Quora, and that’s true, I could, but I am trying to build a new community here without having to send people back and forth. As this is a work in progress, you may be subjected to information that you already know. I understand the frustration.
Understand the reasoning for these posts, and if you are so inclined to let me know in the comments section what it is that you are interested in knowing that I haven’t already addressed, I will do my best to address your new questions in a future post. Let me know what insights you are seeking and I will try to meet all of my readers where they are.
Since there are people bringing up different aspects of NT experience compared to the psychopath I remember the first time that I was really confronted with the possibility of not being NT. My college roommate was a Church of Christ preacher and he was writing a sermon/tract touting the superiority of the "conviction of the Holy Spirit" vs "Having a conscious", and I realized that despite having been a regular church goer for the 18 years of my life I had no clue as to what he was talking about.
A few years later when I was married my now ex wife would attempt to throw my past misdeeds at me it cause a guilt trip and I'd frequently laugh as I never felt any remorse, guilt or shame at anything she tried to use.
Something I've never gotten about some of the online test is that they'll ask if you think that someone "deserved" whatever I may have done and the fact is that I've never really considered it when I've done something. I did what I did for my own reasons
Repetitive posts from Quora shouldn’t bother your readers here, since it shouldn’t be a big deal to just stop reading a post, etc. It is very obvious that you care about what you’re doing here, and I think that’s great. I apologize for promising to come back to a topic after thinking on it, and not finding the time to do so, as life is very complicated for me right now.
I did mention I would like to know about how you experience humour. Intellectually, we can find things funny, but as we laugh, hormones are secreted, chemicals that give us joy just from smiling. Some therapists, as I’m sure you know, even advocate practicing smiling in a mirror in an effort to “fake it until you make it” (that one I find ridiculous, but it may work for some, although I could never suggest it, or do it because I find it condescending or disingenuous). Considering your brain structure is different, and I assume your chemistry (oxytocin for one) is also, I wonder how you experience humour; if there are different levels of it, etc.
I also appreciate that it must be very difficult to describe something compared to something you’ve never experienced firsthand. I think you do a great job of it, and although difficult, you are successful in helping the NT look into the way your mind/brain works. It is quite a feat, and I hope you can feel some sort of pride or satisfaction from it.